Purposeful Pursuits

 

I realized today that I need to find more purpose. Now that I have actually (fiiiiiinally) started to feel settled into my apartment and routine, I need something to work toward, something to accomplish. It’s tough though, because I don’t want to commit to anything that will take up too much of my time. I still want the freedom to do basically whatever, whenever, and I need time to explore my area and find things I like about where I live now. But I also need a reason to get up in the morning – a small, yet pressingly present reason. A thing to do.

Work doesn’t do it. I like my job and the people I work with, but it’s fairly unfulfilling as far as feeling like I make any sort of impact. It’s an entry level job, and I work hard to do excel and find ways to improve my office’s function and efficiency. But I have always known that while I want a job that is fulfilling and invigorating, I don’t want my job to be my purpose (at least, not my primary one).

Friends can’t do it. This just isn’t a thing that they can provide for me. It is (hopefully) one  of the purposes of every person’s life, to have and keep and protect and enrich the lives of their friends. But that can’t be the totality of my purpose either. I need to do more.

I’ve been meaning to get an online store underway, and I think that will help. Something to curate, be creative with, strive for success in. I’m collecting all the parts, working hard on developing an inventory, sorting out everything so that when I launch it, I am truly ready for whatever it brings.

Just one more piece of my never-ending adventure.

More to follow.

A Simple, Good Little Life

I read a great little article / blog post recently (and where I read it completely escapes me). It was an opinion piece, which stated that there is absolutely nothing wrong with wanting to live a rather small, insular, happy life. There is nothing wrong with having no grand aspirations. As long as you can take care of yourself and those you are responsible for, be kind to others and the world, be respectful of other lifestyles, and enact kindness and social justice in your own sphere, you don’t have to feel compelled to be something grandiose.

I strongly agreed with the writer of that piece (curses that I can’t remember who it was or where I read it!). The world is certainly better for having people with those kind of aspirations in it, and needs people like that to be at the forefront of the ongoing fight for social justice, respect toward all, etc. But no one person is compelled to be what they do not personally feel drawn to be. As long as you’re not an asshole, you’re good.

Having recently gone through the passing of my 95-year old grandmother, I am at a point right now where I’m thinking a little more than usual about what I want my life to look like, in the far future, immediate future, and present.

I want change. I want some things about my current life to be different. Therefore, I’m making a commitment to myself, to stay vigilant for moments when those changes could take place, and to leap for them when they come.

A simple, good little life is my ultimate goal.

More to follow.